I’m still in a holding pattern as job searching continues. Yesterday I hit the 30 application mark. There’s been progress, but not as quick as I was hoping. There are things I’d like to start planning for. Places to go, work to do on the blog, and writing for the ebook, but all of that needs to wait until the job situation gets settled.
It’s a bit frustrating, but, this is a part of the the lifestyle too. A wise man once said that you can have anything you want in this life, but not everything. Full-timing before retirement? Absolutely doable, but one of the tradeoffs is having to repeatedly job search like this, unless your sitting on a big pile of money or making money another way. This part of RVing is not as glamorous as the traveling parts and not interesting to write about, but it is what it is.
As a part of this grand experiment, every now and then I like to sit down in a quiet spot with no distractions and ask myself, am I still enjoying the ride? And really think about the answer. It’s a practice that might make some people nervous, because what if the answer is no? What if, after all the work and effort you spent changing your life, you finally succeed just to realize it isn’t for you after all?
That’s okay, truly. Better to realize it sooner than later, because you’re saving on the one resource you can never get back, time. In our culture, quitting has a very negative image associated with it. Quitters weren’t strong enough, quitters never get ahead, quitters are losers.
In my opinion, it’s a mark of strength to decide to cut your loses and quit something that isn’t working for you. The trick however is understanding what kind of resistance you’re coming up against, because there are basically two types.
In any new or difficult endeavor, there are going to be walls that you come up against as you push through. And some of them will be hard and you’ll wonder if you shouldn’t just quit, and go back to the way things were. But this isn’t the same as deciding that it isn’t right for you, this type of resistance is born out of fear. Fear that you aren’t strong enough, and it should not stop you from chasing your dreams. If you decide to quit now, when you still really want your dream, you’ll always wonder in the back of your mind, what if?
But if you come to the conclusion that the dream is no longer what you want, that’s the other kind of resistance, and the kind that it’s okay to turn from. It takes strength to face the first kind of resistance and topple it to keep pushing ahead, it takes strength to face the second kind of resistance and make the deliberate decision to stop, and find another dream. And it takes a measure of wisdom, to tell the difference between the two kinds.
Job searching may be tedious, frustrating, and unpleasant. But when I ask myself if I’m still enjoying the ride, the answer remains Yes. So I continue pushing through, armed with the knowledge that this too shall pass.
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Oh, and the astute (and those following IO on Facebook) might have noticed that there is a new addition to the site. At the bottom of the page is a little map of where all I went in 2012, as promised. It’s location might still be changing, I’m experimenting with the best place to put it still. There is also one in the works for this year’s adventure so far. Much thanks to Julie for headlining both maps!